Im the Hijabi beginner :)

 Enam bulan saya simpan niat untuk berhijab. Macam macam yang saya fikir kan. Apa dan macam mana penerimaan orang dekat saya? Saya bukan orang yang tak buat kesalahan, saya bermula sebagai orang yang nak cuba semua benda. Yes, I admit. Im not a perfect person. I have done a lot of mistakes. Bila hati tiba tiba terdetik, saya ragu ragu. Betul ke ini yang saya nak? Ini yang saya cari? Sebab ragu ragu, saya simpan niat dalam hati selama enam bulan. Dah lemau dah kan. Haha. Saya belajar sendiri cara bertudung dekat internet, saya tak mau bagitau orang niat saya, saya tak nak orang kata saya bercakap tak serupa bikin. Mulut orang lagi bisa dari pisau tau! Tengok tengok, adik saya berhijab dulu. It is good for her. And I have learned many things from her. Kadang kadang tak salah belajar dari orang yang lebih muda.

Alhamdulillah, I started wearing the hijab last week, during my final exams ( 7th March 2011) and at first I think its so hard and it did come with its rough times, I am just so glad I went through with it and it is one of the best things I have ever done and I don't regret a single thing. Saya tau mama memang nak sangat anak anak dia bertudung. Dia sangat gembira. She supported me 101%. Mama kata pakai sebab kewajipan, bukan sebab orang yang suruh. And now I am fine and love wearing it, I have those days where I look in the mirror and smile back at the reflection and think this is perfect for me :D

When you are wearing hijab, wear it because of you want to, and your responsibility. The hijab is something that once you take on, it's something that sticks with you throughout your life and it makes you who you are. Some women just are not ready to wear hijab and we should respect their decision. Who we are to blame them? Bukan bermaksud kita berhijab tapi kita tak buat walaupun sekecil zarah dosa, kan?

 It's an amazing feeling to walk out wearing the hijab and knowing that each time you're wearing the hijab you are getting closer to Allah. Insya Allah. 

Nota kaki : Saya masih baru dan tidak sempurna.